Am i protecting myself to much?

Why is everyone turning against me

It's running through my mind intensely

The memories creeping up on me 

I feel every small sensation consuming me

I can’t breathe, and I cannot run, 

quicksand catches up with me

I reach out for a hand but I keep sinking.

Did I protect myself too hard?

Or did I just lash out too harshly in pain?

I don't know; how will I know?

When I lose all the tears I have shed 

my trust in others becomes dead.

Are they scared of my honesty? 

I am a green light I go until I get my intentions to resonate with others

Because being a red light is like being a person with the worth of a burden, 

If I am protecting myself then I must continue the fight, 

until I see the sun shining down, and I feel alright.