LOVE ISN’T ALWAYS PRETTY

11/2/23

Love isn’t always pretty.

The first time I fell in love was in high school. I felt powerful and had such a lust for confidence. I didn’t fall in love with another person, but I fell in love with myself. I just remember feeling on top of the world, but this feeling didn’t last forever, and as much as I wish I could be stuck in this fantasy world of mine forever, I couldn’t. 

No one talks about what it’s like to fall out of love with yourself and wonder why you don’t love who you are anymore. No one talks about the cycle of trying to regain what you once lost. Love isn’t always pretty.

Once you hit a bump in the road, you change. When you react to a situation, it changes the way you think and feel. Every mistake that we make teaches us and helps us to evolve and become better humans. Sometimes, this change can take days, weeks, or years, but eventually, you will feel this new light and power within you.

It’s been four years, and I have just realized that the person I have been looking for no longer exists. That person died once I endured some of the most heartbreaking, overwhelming, and stressful moments in my life. I had been so confused about why I couldn’t become the self-love-obsessed person I once was, but I learned that love comes in so many different forms, and though I may not feel it as intensely, the love radiating inside of me, I still see and feel love all around me.

I feel like I am finally starting to find my purpose. All of the healing I have done and continue to do has helped me to open my heart and mind to new perspectives and opportunities. I love who I am becoming, and I love the life that I have been creating.

Love isn’t always pretty. It is not always perfect.

Love is power and is constantly evolving. Like me and you, we are continually growing and becoming the best versions of ourselves.

Written by: Ellie Weinberg