It’s true being in your 20 is lonely

I've been in my 20s for about two years now, and don’t get me wrong, it's fun, but there are also so many things you have to start doing on your own, which I was not set out for. So far, the only thing 21 has taught me is that being alone and feeling lonely is normal. Especially when my friends have big girl jobs in the city; it also taught me how much of an old lady I am becoming. On a Friday night, you can catch me drawing in my bed while eating random snacks around the house. I don’t even remember buying those random dairy-free chocolates hidden in the depths of my college girl fridge. Okay, but I like staying in like I do not need to embarrass myself at the town's bar and staying up till 3 a.m. I mean, been there, done that, and trust me, you do not want to meet three hours of sleep, Ellie, because she is very sassy and never grew out of the daily naps.

My twenties have also taught me that this is the time to find out who you are and who is meant to be in your life. These years have taught us that making mistakes is okay and the best thing to do is take each day with a grain of salt. The errors that I have made have helped me bloom so much and get comfortable with the uncomfortable. Some days go by where I have not gone a day without thinking about my pasts friendships, relationships, and how I have handled past situations, and sometimes it screws me up, you know, your local overthinker. But we are learners. That's what we are made for. We are always learning, growing, and becoming better than our past versions. Life is fucking challenging, to say the least; we tackle new issues every day, big or small. 

I have become bolder and more straightforward, and I think part of it is a defense mechanism to protect myself, but it’s also helped me go for what I want and achieve the most. Having a voice and being upfront also has a part of awareness to it. It’s essential always to be conscious and aware of what people are going through and how we all have different life perspectives or how our paradigms of life are at all different levels and share diverse stories. This is why it is so important to be aware of what other people are going through or dealing with emotionally, mentally, and physically.

I thank my 20s for throwing challenges at me to become a better person.